I didn’t grow up going to church, although I was read the Bible by my parents every Saturday, taught about Jesus being crucified for our sins, which I always felt a strong connection with wanting to know and understand more. I didn’t even see it coming when I had begun to stray away, it’s as if I didn’t even realize how far and fast it happened to me…
…I’ve had quite a bit happen throughout life, as has everyone. I had so many losses and painful situations happening in my life, one right after another, especially from the years of 2018 up until even today, I cried and asked God how much he thought I could handle. I was mad, I was hurt, I was completely and utterly lost. I didn’t want to live but I didn’t want to die but I needed Jesus but didn’t realize it. Over the last 2 years I started to feel differently after losing a baby and almost my life in the process of losing our baby. I felt a pulling towards something, but still didn’t fully understand what it was.
In September, our family went through something awful, I dropped to my knees and prayed to God, I prayed to Jesus and I prayed with every single fiber of my being….my prayers were answered beyond a doubt and quickly. It was ever since then I 100% just knew God, Jesus, His angels all had come through and answered my cries for help, of me begging for help for one of my children, they answered so very quickly, and I know this because had they not, my child would have gone through so much worse than he did. It was made very clear to me and my boyfriend that it was God, Jesus and His angels who sprung into action and saved my boy. My prayers that day were answered, even though I had drifted so far off.
Ever since that day, I have thanked God and Jesus for what could have happened being stopped with their divine intervention. The pulling feeling that I didn’t recognize became so much stronger since then but I didn’t know what to do with it. I truly feel Jesus saw all the struggles I was going through and that I just didn’t know how to get closer or what to do because I was never taught about that…I needed Jesus in my heart, my soul, my whole being…
…I’ve been saved by Jesus Christ not only dying on the cross for my sins but also for Him guiding me straight to Him with open arms when I was struggling to understand what was spiritually happening to me, He came to help me and did He ever!!!! I feel I have finally, truly been blessed with Jesus becoming a part of my everyday life, my heart, the way I see and react to things differently than I would before, I finally feel unconditional love and understand true forgiveness.